According to July’s Star of the Month, family members told her that her father, who is Asian, left when her mother was six months pregnant.
They also provided stories about his socio-economic background.
“I asked questions and the response was that my Korean father was wealthy and in a gang, and because of that, he had to travel,” Shenseea said.
As a matter of fact, Shenseea believes that even if he had returned to St Elizabeth where her family lived, her father would not know where to start as they migrated to Kingston.
She added that, “Even with all that information [while growing up] I never yet said, ‘if my dad was around mi wouldn’t ah live suh enuh’. I don’t think it impacted me; I don’t even know or think it impacted my mother.”
The Love I Got For U singjay said she has had a few father figures in her life but for whatever reason, she did not become attached to them.
Both her mother and aunt (who raised her) had men in their lives, but Shenseea shared that her mother’s male partner, who has been around since Shenseea’s childhood, died recently and she had to force a few tears out.
“I was there forcing myself to cry. That for me was horrible because I don’t feel attached to him, and my aunt’s man tried to play a father role but after a while began treating her daughter better so it changed,” she said.
Shenseea expressed that she would not close the door on her father if he ever turns up, stating that her first words to him would probably be ‘wah gwaan?’
She said, “It’s not a must [to meet him] but I know I would not be in tears. We could find out about each other. I would not shun him.”
“Everything I’ve been through [including not having a father] really made me the person I am and I love who I am, although I have to work on things like forgiving people,” she added.